I’ve never not had pain but as this year keeps going the joint pain, body aches, extreme fatigue, and I could go on and on with symptoms. I know it’s not normal.
I had my first appointment with a rheumatologist yesterday. I knew I had some type of arthritis but what type I wasn’t sure. Some days it’s hard to even walk across my house. Some days I can barely get out of bed even if I’ve slept for 12 hours, I still feel so tired.
I use to be so active. Camping, hiking, going to the gym, dancing, living life and having fun. Now, I’m in constant pain and don’t want to keep going on like this. If there is a way to help/cure this problem then I’m on a mission to find it.
I’m 41 years young not 80. I still want to do all the things I enjoy. I want to be the active Grammy to my grandsons. I want to go hiking with my husband and I really miss dancing in the kitchen with him. I miss being me.
Most days it hurts to even do my chores. I push myself to do everything I’m suppose to but my body pays me back for the pushing by getting worse. I get told “well you are getting older”. Yes, I know I am getting older but I shouldn’t feel this way at 41.
I want to continue to build up our homestead and raise our birds. I know if I can’t figure out what is happening internally then I will never accomplish our goals. I need my life back.
So, I’m on a mission to figure out my body. Our homestead will continue, I won’t stop. I won’t stop anything I start, it’s just not in my nature. Keep pushing to make all our dreams a reality. I can/will continue to keep pushing.
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